NOT Pregnant

I have always been a very open person and want to share with people what my journey is.
Maybe start with a little background...
Shelby and I were married June 2nd 2006 and had originally decided to wait until January of 2008 to start trying to start a family. Well after a few girls at work and countless other friends were starting to get pregnant the pressure was on. I had a small breakdown and at the end we decided to start trying then. That was in August of last year, 2007, and still nothing. We, and I say we because Shelby is helping me, have been tracking my cycle every month. It was 21 days then 28 days and now it's anywhere from 30 days to the very latest 41 days in between cycles. This makes it very hard to get an exact point of ovulation.
This past month I was so excited when the 37th day came and still nothing! Oh the joy that this could finally be it. So day 38 rolls around and I'm ready to take "The Test". I bought a really cool digital test this time so that I could see the words with my eyes and not have to guess at how many lines were there. Well let me tell you at this point I would much prefer the lines over the digital read out. It was like the test was yelling at me "NOT PREGNANT!!!!!!" Wow, like it didn't hurt enough that it said it, but did it have to be in all caps, minus the exclamation points. So finally on day 40, out two year anniversary, came the dreaded visitor.
I know that it will all happen in the perfect time, but I would really prefer to not go that many days in between cycles. Mostly for my sanity, but also for the great sense of sadness that I feel. I know that Shelby feels it too, and he just puts it all away and supports me.
So month by month, day by day, I will be updating on our family situation. Whatever the outcome, baby or no baby, I will be honest and share with you our journey.
Melissa