Friday, November 21, 2008

Our House, is very very very Fine house!

Well people one of the moments we have all been waiting for...Shelby and I have a house. It's pretty much almost official. Escrow will close on Dec. 2nd. We couldn't be happier, well maybe a little, but not much:)
We have just been so faithful that God will open the doors for us and He certainly has! It was a short sale so there was a quik escrow and now in less than 2 weeks we will hopefully be moving in. I don't even think it has soaked in all the way and it probably wont until I am moving stuff in and making dinner in my kitchen...WOOHOO!!!!!!
So keep on praying for us and that God will continue to pour out His wonderful blessings upon us! Amen!

Wednesday, November 5, 2008

Prop 8

Let me start off by saying this is not a political blog. This blog is meant for me to share my beliefs and opinions. I happen to have a very strong opinion on prop 8 and I am so sick of people calling it a civil rights issue. This IS NOT a civil rights issue!
My belief is that marriage is between a man and a woman. Yes, I believe this because of my faith in Jesus Christ.
What gets me is that four years ago, California, as a state, voted against gay marriage. It wasn't just a couple people, it was the whole state. We didn't vote to have it overturned, but because some people were offended and upset that we were discriminating against them it got overturned. Well yesterday, California again as a state voted to oppose gay marriage and now people are suing saying it's not fair.
Wake up and tell me where it's fair that I vote and people don't respect that. Can I sue the people suing the state because I don't agree with them? Because I think their vote doesn't have any standing? What rights do I have as a voter if they do not respect my vote, and the vote of all the others who voted to uphold the value of marriage?
There will be people who do not agree with me and I completely respect your views. All I ask is that you in turn respect mine.
I will now get off my soap box and hope that everyone has a very blessed week!

Monday, October 27, 2008

Frienship

I've been wanting to write this blog for a long time, but could never figure out the words I wanted to use. My life has been full of ups and downs, much like everyone elses. The two things that get me through everything are God and friends.
I am so blessed to have such an amazing group of friends, old and new. And more recently have am amazing group of girls that are so uplifting to my spirit that I cry tears of joy to have them in my life. I truly believe that the friends I have now are meant to be in my life for good. We have such a great support system in eachother and it is all based on out belief in God. We can pray together and cry together and share together, how amazing is that!
I borrowed a book from my sister, my greatest of all friends, yesterday. "When it Pours, He Reigns" It's a book about overcoming life's storms and let me tell you that in the one chapter I have read it has given me such peace. A quote from the book says,"We will fulfill what God created us to do only by getting and staying connected with those who join us on our journey." This is the TRUTH!!! As I read that I sat and thought about the things I have been dealing with this year and how I don't think I could have made it through as well as I have without the women that God has placed in my life. We are destined fro greatness!
We encourage eachother to stand tall and not to give up. The enemy will try and attack, but we have to claim the victory that is already ours. The book also touches on sharing your expierence with others because you never know who your testimony can speak to. There are others out there who need to know what we know and what we have gone through to get out on the other side, we need to help them to know that no matter how dark the tunnel is, there is light on the other side.
I am stronger for the things I have gone through and have learned some very valuable lessons, not only this year, but in the 4 years leading up to it. I can now stand and say that God has been my driving force, but the friends that he has placed in my life have been my wings, helping to carry me through the rough times.
I love you all more than you will ever know!

Wednesday, October 15, 2008

Sept/ Oct.

Wow! What a ride these past months have been.
Still no baby, but we our one step closer to our dreams, our offer on a home got accepted! Praise the Lord!!! This is such an answer to prayer.
Shelby and i have been praying that the Lord would open doors for us to get a home and He certainly did. As many of you know Shelby got laid off from his job at the church because there wasn't the funding to keep him on. Of course as this is happening we had found and put an offer down on a very cute townhome. Shelby has been looking for another job, but hasn't found one yet. Our wonderful Pastor made the decision to keep Shelby on for the time being so that we can get the house and should another job come up Shelby is free to take it. I cannot begin to tell you they joy that is in my heart. I don't even know why there was any worry in my heart over this because I know that when the Lord opens a door he will provide everything you need. Can I get an AMEN!!
I'm not sure when we will be moving in, but I'm hoping within the next month to month and a half. I have all these ideas fro how I want to decorate, i just can't wait.
We are going to keep on praying for a smooth transcation and transition, but with all God has already provided I have no worries on how the rest will turn out.

Tuesday, August 26, 2008

Update

I know that it has been a while since my last real update...
Here is the news on the fertility front:
I am not preggers yet. I did however, start the fertility drug Clomid. I found out from my Dr. that i wasn't ovulating, I know I was thinking the same thing, how can you have a period and not ovulate, but I guess it can happen. The Clomid is what kick starts the ovulation process. Let me just say that I have never experienced such horrible hot flashes in my whole life!!!! They are bad. Besides the hot flashes I love Clomid.
I used to take ovulation tests and never get any results at all. The test line would be there, but no result line...EVER!!! After following the Dr's. orders I started taking the tests on day 11. Low and behold there was actually a result line. It was faint, but I could definitely see the second pink line:) I tested every morning and finally on day 20 the lines were the same color!!!!!!!!! I took a picture and sent it to Shelby and my sister. I called my mom and my friend Jen. I then ran down the hall to show my other friend Marcus. I know it sounds crazy, but I was so excited that I was actually ovulating that I wanted everyone to know. When you take those tests and there are never any results and then one day there is it is the best feeling in the world. I wanted to share it with everyone.
As much as I want to get pregnant this month has been a great break through month. If I'm not pregnant at least I was ovulating and the Clomid is working. I couldn't be happier! Now we just have to wait and see if this is the month. Praying everyday!

Monday, August 18, 2008

10 Year Reunion

This past Saturday Shelby and I went to my 10 year reunion. I'm glad I went!
It seems to me that no one has changed. They still hang out with the same people every weekend, drink with the same people every weekend and haven't really gone anywhere. Of course they have jobs and kids and a house, but they haven't moved beyond the high school. For the people i graduated with this was just another weekend to see each other and party.
I wanted it to be something special, something to remember. I was glad that I got to see some of my old classmates, but for the most part it was a little disappointing.
When we were on our way home I told Shelby that I had worked so hard over the past 10 years to remove myself from everyone that I felt no connection to them when I saw them. There were people there that had changed and done something with themselves, but like me they had removed themselves from the whole scene. It was good to catch up with those people and that was it.
So all in all it was a learning expierence. I learned that some people will never change, but thats just who they are. I might go to my 20 year, but that will have to be something more thought over in the next 10 years.

Sunday, June 15, 2008

Father's Day

Today was a wonderful father's day! After church Shelby and I went to lunch with my parents, sister, sister's bf and his brother. It's always a full house, but that's how we like it!
I will say this, in the past few years I can honestly say that my relationship with my father has grown by leaps and bounds. I can remember being a teenager and always arguing with him. I will admit that I had a mouth on me and was big on talking back. I guess once you get older you start to realize that the energy you waste on the fights is never worth it in the end.
I love my dad dearly and couldn't have asked for a better dad. He has taught me so much and I will be forever grateful to him. I could never say it growing up, but I can say it now...I am very proud to be Daddy's Little Girl!

Sunday, June 8, 2008

NOT Pregnant

I have always been a very open person and want to share with people what my journey is.
Maybe start with a little background...
Shelby and I were married June 2nd 2006 and had originally decided to wait until January of 2008 to start trying to start a family. Well after a few girls at work and countless other friends were starting to get pregnant the pressure was on. I had a small breakdown and at the end we decided to start trying then. That was in August of last year, 2007, and still nothing. We, and I say we because Shelby is helping me, have been tracking my cycle every month. It was 21 days then 28 days and now it's anywhere from 30 days to the very latest 41 days in between cycles. This makes it very hard to get an exact point of ovulation.
This past month I was so excited when the 37th day came and still nothing! Oh the joy that this could finally be it. So day 38 rolls around and I'm ready to take "The Test". I bought a really cool digital test this time so that I could see the words with my eyes and not have to guess at how many lines were there. Well let me tell you at this point I would much prefer the lines over the digital read out. It was like the test was yelling at me "NOT PREGNANT!!!!!!" Wow, like it didn't hurt enough that it said it, but did it have to be in all caps, minus the exclamation points. So finally on day 40, out two year anniversary, came the dreaded visitor.
I know that it will all happen in the perfect time, but I would really prefer to not go that many days in between cycles. Mostly for my sanity, but also for the great sense of sadness that I feel. I know that Shelby feels it too, and he just puts it all away and supports me.
So month by month, day by day, I will be updating on our family situation. Whatever the outcome, baby or no baby, I will be honest and share with you our journey.
Melissa